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Tuesday, July 28, 2009
i realised i can't not care about anybody in your life. when you have best friends , family , anyone , you just care about them . i think , me trying to be someone or already thinking of what i want to do in my life, what WILL make me happy , is like impossible . you can't be whoever you imagine, & you can't expect life. living is life, but what lives in your life, thats your decision . i dont know wtf life is for anymore. helping others , or yourself ? how the hell does karma work; making a good deed & you'll thank it ? but , if you do a good deed , then thats just more inconvenience in your life , and what if one day , you die for doing a good deed ? i dont understand anymore, people all aorund me are confusing me, can someone make me understand again . page 5 my fairys t o r y ♥ Monday, July 27, 2009 during the holidays , i dreaded having to go back to school , though on this last day , i'm pretty glad schools soon , i dont know the reason , though i just do =) . though that little bitch is probably gonner keep annoying me , but i'll show her when she fckn talks to me , fckn make her never talk to me ever fckn agains . hmm , i suddenly feel , happier , but , i know the feelings gonner end . happiness doesnt last a lifetime , not even the happiest person in the world can be happy 24/7 , its life . you have to hate something or someone in your life . you can hide things in your life , but you can't runaway from it , just admit it , because, theres no point hiding it . catching 11:11, just that minute can make a difference . it might not work at the first time , but just keep trying . page 4 , my fairys t o r y ♥ Friday, July 24, 2009 this post is dedicated to jaymes le, because he is very cool . i saw him today at city , unexpectedly he appeared at show with anna . it was a mad day , because jaymes was there (: . i took some luvos with jaymes , :L though it was ugly == , he is a good singer , he should be the new zac effron . 8) Saturday, July 18, 2009 that girl i hated . Shes playing around with me again. In HER perspective she said "it was just a joke" , saying my close friend of mine that shes "doesnt even care" & "i should give it to someone that would appreciate it" , its jst a dedi . and it wasnt evn edited , she only put words and a phrase on it . not even one single edit. pshht , she thinks its all a joke , she thinks the worlds a joke , i told her off . and she was lik , oh , it was jst a joke , evn my other friend said so , idc if she thinks so ? , does she think that if she puts the blame on the other friend i would stop coz i wouldnt scream at her ? is that what ? shes an IDIOT . == i swear , she is such a waste of time. & then she decided to tell someone that i wouldnt win against , and it made me laugh , the fact , shes trying to hide . == , shes SOOOO tb , "keyboard warrior" pshht , she cant do jack shit , saying all this shit. after i told her off on msn , she edited her comment she wrote abt it , and deleted mine , which annoyed me , because she ALWAYS changes stuff , to make stuff make sense to her point of view , shes sooooo annoying , always running away , coz she knows she was the one that was wrong , she knows it . but she cant admit it herself , just admit it. stop denying it , you'll eventually say it , why make the hassle of a complication in the middle . why is there always a problem in the middle, when we could always just start with once upon a time & end with the end . =) , but there always seem to ALWAYS , have a complication . page 3, my fairys t o r y . ♥ Tuesday, July 14, 2009 Words .. they're so easy to say. But i cant do it myself yet, why do i use it as advice ? making it sound so easy . hahas , im so stupid. haha , im such a loser, so hippacritical. no wonder i always end up with regrets. I dont blame me, i'm so demanding, I cant help it. i like it when i can control something. sigh, why, when i want it , & then when i have it , i dont want it anymore >< . i truly am spoilt . im so scared of going back to where i started. but, its life. i have to . == page 2, my fairys t o r y. ♥ Saturday, July 11, 2009 I'm sick and tired of hearing bullshit . They keep making excuses just to try to include themselves. Why can't they just say what they actually think ? I don't care if it's the only one with that perspective. What is wrong with this world ? If you said what you really , actually thought , other people might agree , adn you could make a point instead of just going with the flow , then screwing up your life. Do you know how you gossip to your girlfriends and like , tell them your regrets and stuff , well , WTF is the fucking point if they do the exact same fcking thing the next month , ARE THEY LISTENING TO WHAT IM SAYING ? .. this is getting annoying , i dont care anymore ! , == . This is fail , i dont care i dont care i dont care ! , this is one of the reasons why i the life. its so fckning ignorant no matter , how hard i try to say it . page 1, my fairy s t o r y Can you have a relationship with someone either friend or more than that , via the net ? What if you've never met the other person ? Does it still count ? Isn't it weird ? I don't know , but when you hav a internet relationship with someone , it gets pretty annoying i guess. I mean .. how can you call them a friend if , you've never met them ? but then, does that mean a random you meet on the streets is in a more closer relationship then the person you've been tlaking to over the net for a month but never seen each other ? . Who knows =) , xx page 8, my fairy t h o u g h t s . ♥ Wednesday, July 8, 2009 My MX horoscope today: It feels like you are taking two steps forward and one back. slow and steady progress is frustrating but ultimately brings you closer to a chosen goal. Retain your sense of humour in trying circumstances. It was quite true, though , its unexplainable. It's like it just feels right. but i dont know what it is, ahahs , i guess i should just keep guessing? hmm, i feel like i did improve trying to be carefree, but , i still have things stuck on my back , i just can't see. Sigh if only i could just rip itout . it'll be so much easier. hmm, im not bothered, to blog these days. maybe another time, ooh its 11:11 . hold on =) . i wish.. page 7 of my fairy s t o r y.♥ Tuesday, July 7, 2009 i've been eating a lot lately, maybe , well probably because its my time of the month, & i've been eating like i've never ever done before. i eat when im full, i eat when i have nothing to do, i eat if theres something in front of me, i eat when everyone else is eating , i eat when i have money and theres a store right there. == whyy ? & the thing is, im not gaining weight, where does it go? it annoys me .. knowing that i dont know where its going, no matter how much i eat, its lik when someone wants revenge but they havent done anything to you yet, and you hear whispers behind your back saying, omg , this is goner be hilarious, & nothings been done to you yet. its like that, like .. you know its suppose to be coming , but its not there yet. well its pretty hard to explain, & i got contacts today, :D i was fine when i was blind, my own quote =) , helenbby♥didntcopyright. page 6 of my fairy s t o r y . ♥ Sunday, July 5, 2009 when you know that anything can kill you, that you can die any minute, doesnt it scare you? or make you feel really overprotective. But then , why don't you think about doing something, it doesnt matter if its a risk, risktaking actually makes you move on , like my sudoku , i risk sometimes, so i can make another move, and sometimes i lose , and sometimes i get to move on to the next one =). its not always about your life being perfect, making it perfect will only slow you down, no one can get to perfection. how can you? when you don't even know when it's perfected . page 5 of my f a i r y t a l e i dont understand, the way things change so quick , things move around around , and some just go away. i fell down so many time on shirleys birthday, but.. somethings changed, i know it . i just don't know what yet. until then, i'll just keep guessing, and hope nothing gets interfered because of me along the way. page4 of my f a i r y t a l e Thursday, July 2, 2009 Why is it so hard to be inspired by her, its not as easy as i thought it would. I don't get it at all, how can she be so happy and stupid, she'll do whatever anyone said and she was so polite even if the other was very rude. Shes an idiot, no one can be her, coz no one can be as stupid as her, shes too nice, it takes a lot of courage for a person to admit something about themselves. why cant she stand up for herself, she doesn't say anything to anyone, not even her closest friends. but, why would she hide it all, is it that easy? knowing that everyone thinks your so happy when you hav 219483158 reasons why your sad and 132 reasons why your happy. admitting something in your life can obviously take a lot of time, though sometimes, it's the right thing to do, and once you understand and is certain of what you did , and your willing to tell someone, well .. thats takes a lot of courage, coz i can't do it myself. & especially when your a child, when you know theres so many things you can't do. page 3 , my fairytale ? Wednesday, July 1, 2009 i feel asif im free from the world, theres nothing on my shoulders, & i dont have to worry about anything in the world. after releasing those grudges , make me feel , so relieved, i can now breathe without having to saying something behind my breathe, or anything , & knowing i'll be so much happier now, makes me feel like i cant fck up my life no matter what anymore, & to think, that i've been miserable, makes me want to laugh, why was i so damm pathetic? why couldnt i have thought about this earlier, & one day i wanna be those people that, inspire other people .. & make a difference .. page 2, my fairytale . =) |
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