you ended my heartbeat,too..

Is getting a love one a competition?
Why do I try so hard, its not a competition..
Why have i never thought about it before?
HAHAs, i love Vampire Diaries, its EFFING madd,
the stories they have are so true,
They are AT THE MOMENT inspiring me to read twilight,
but i feel kinda embarrassed to read it now ..
i'm a bit delayed ? =S ,
well, i guess, i shouldn't try that hard,
like i said,
its not a competition :)
thankyouuu tv :D
love youu <3 HAHAs
:D

Its not right .. everything wasn’t the way its supposed to.
Everything is not where it should be, like you,
You were meant to be with me forever,
Like the water flows with the river,
I thought we had that kind of connection,
But, I guess I wasn’t getting the right reflection.
If only .. life had an option,
We wouldn’t have the complication,
Life wouldn’t be so hard on us,
& there wouldn’t be so much fuss.
Was life different before?
Did someone just change the law?
If only.. this was this , and that was that,
But then for a matter of fact,
Life’s life, & i can’t change it,
But someone else can, & if that someone just changed it a bit,
& fix every problem I have, & he was everything I ever wanted,
He’ll be that one and only and I’ll never regret that we started,
& we’ll never have a problem, even if we do, I’ll always think from the start,
That I promised we’ll never be apart,
We’ll end up being together,
And when we are right by our sides, we’ll make everything better,
Cos, from the day I wished for you,
& when me and you had no clue on what to do,
Cos its been so long,
Through every song,
Through every bad,
Through the moments we’re sad,
The days we’ll never forget,
When you thought of everything you regret,
That person I will find,
& when I do you’ll be mine,
Forever and ever, til we’re old farts,
If forever is impossible, then til death do us part,
Because, I’ll do anything to keep my butterflies,
That feeling when they’re just flying in my stomach, & the knots that it ties,
Are unexplainable, & priceless,
& when I find him, and he says “I love you”, I’ll scream and say “yes,”
Cos that’ll be the day,
11:11 was on my way..

<3 you,
To him..

i was thinking about him,
i had a small rush, a flashback,
of the times we were so close,
giggles would've been chuckd around on every single thing,
i would miss him no matter how long the wait was,
& i was so excited 24/7
just with the butterflies in my stomach, everytime he was talking to me,
it felt like, nothing in this world can compare with it,
honestly, is there anything else? or anyone ..
maybe, i knew he wasnt the one but i chose not to believe that,
it could've been not destined to be all along,

but i miss the times when he'd always remind me when it was 11:11,
so i'd never miss it,
i miss the times when he'd always ask me to luvo or make a dedi for him,
& he'd say " i can't get enough of you >< "
i miss the times when we would txt 24/7 even during school,
& he'd get caught by the teachers sometimes,
i miss waiting for that txt message alert tone,
rushing to my phone, knowing that its him,
i miss the times where i'd have to delete my whole inbox,
becoz there was no more space,
i miss when after school i'd rush to the comp,
looking if you were online,
i miss the feeling that i'd get,
whenever i'm talking to you,
i miss you teasing me,
& me teasing you,
i miss talking to you,
i miss you ..
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I LOVE THE LYRICS

Why you gotta make it so hard for me
To love you like I can?
Why you gotta see me walk away
To make you understand?
You only get one chance, one heart
One love you can call on true, baby
Why you gotta make it so hard for me to love you?
Why you gotta make it so hard?

its sooo truee ,

but i love this one as well

Before you go away
So far away
You need to realize

Baby its not just you
You know it hurts me too
Watching you leave with tears on your sleeve
Notice that mine arent exactly dry
Baby its not just you
Thats hurting,
Its me too...

the songs are so true ,

Hard to love - Joanna Pacitti

It's Not just you - Nasri

they are such good songs ,
MUST LISTEN !! :D

xx

if you had my eyes you'd see,
the way things changed between you and me,
don't say you haven't coz you don't know,
because now things aren't the way it goes,
i can't explain it to you,
that's why i want you to see it too,
you think this isn't breaking me?
obviously it is if you can believe,
but i don't believe you,
make me believe you,
because I don't want to,
It's the only way this is appearing to me,
& i remember how things use to be,
so bring us back to history,
because your the heart and i have the key.
but you gave it to someone,
& now we're all done,
& btw, it's not cos of him,
I didn't mind seeing you & him touching each others limbs,
actually i did mind, but i didn't care,
cos i just pretended you guys weren't there,
but now you've changed into someone,
& this is the times we're suppose to be having fun,
but why can't you understand,
why can't we hold hands,
why can't we go around,
parra and bwood and go to levels 3, 2 & ground,
looking for someone that we don't know is there,
because i remember those memories will still be where,
i had my old shirley,
& her freaking dead hair, ..

xx those times are now gone

Why out of everything it was him that broke us,
& I’m not exaggerating over a little thing making such a big fuss,
But Its true Its all cos of him,
This fight will probably go so far, I’ll have to delete you off my sim,
Because honestly because of him, You’ve changed,
Where has he put my Shirley caged?
Because this isn’t her,
It’s like comparing black and white, They’re a totally different colour,
Don’t say I’m going crazy,
Because this time I’m not as lazy,
Slacking off and just watching everything go past me,
Because Now its become clear to see,
That your change is pissing me off,
& it’s not helping “wtfucking” & then me having to think you coughed,
Because I thought this was a joke,
You probably just need a little soak,
Cos this is serious,
It’s making us both furious,
& others are just curious,
But this change is only to me mysterious,
Fucking hell why can’t it be the same,
& don’t call yourself Shirley cos that’s not your name,
Well not to me, You can be Mrs Fag,
& I remember the words forever always you tagged,
Well I guess that time was forever,
& this fight , well I never,
Thought we’ll have any fights,
Cos I thought we were too tight,
I guess I was wrong so this is it,
I guess there is a limit,
I can not believe this has happened,
I guess the pandoras box was opened,
Actually quit guessing it all happened and don’t think I’m apologizing,
Because your gonner be regretting,
I know it, & then I’ll be the one who says I told you so,
& you’re a bit delayed, then later on you’ll be like , oh,
You know what, have fun with him, Cos I’ll never want to see you and him together,
Nothing will make me and I’m serious, I will NEVER, NOT EVER,
I don’t care do whatever you like,
Do whatever, anything, just don’t do it near me, go on a hike,
Go away, Are my last words,
Cos, After this day, This friendship has turned.
xx

Am I not meant to be?
Am I supposed to be single for eternity?
Why is it that hard to find one love?
Or I’m meant to be the people you just shove?
Because it seems like I’m always the one,
Without anyone, But, what have I done?
Not talking about him in particular,
Even though this poem sounds similar,
Fuck, I need my mind on something,
Cos, this feeling makes me feel like nothing,
I can’t explain this feeling in anymore words,
Though it feels like I’ve been cut with a million swords,
Now I don’t believe in numerology or horoscopes,
After reading them and believing them makes me feel like a dope,
Since most of them didn’t come true,
If only they could be sued!
Because for all those times I almost believed,
That all those fortune telling and wishes I could’ve received,
They’re ALL bullshit,
& here I just sit,
Talking like its all fine,
When I just keep talking to my mind,
About how much I regret,
& hope that I’ll forget,
But, you were one of the sweetest guys,
And these are all not lies,
Sounds cocky, I know,
But, I really love you so,
I’m getting carried away with the subject,
Let’s think about another object (:
A love heart?
One that’s apart?
A broken smile?
One that’s been on a girl for a while?
Sigh I don’t like this ending,
I guess cos my heart’s still mending,
When it’s back to the same shape,
I’ll be seen in a red cape,
I’ll be superman,
With a bit of a dark tan, ==
But, I’ll be invincible,
& everytime I’m hurt, I’ll be healable,
No time for love,
Cos I’ll be flying high up above,
Just like I am now,
Except more reowwr ;)
JOKES, :L well , I still save lives,
& when love comes to me I hide,
& everytime I hide I miss my chance,
& I’ll always see you with someone else when I glance,
& I made this story with an “ happily ever after “
& at the end of my conclusion I hope none says it’s a laughter.
xx

I can’t believe I fell for you,
It looked like it was so true,
I thought we’d last forever,
I guess I wasn’t quite clever,
I feel like an idiot,
Like I was some experiment,
But, no matter what,
I feel so cut,
Not all because of you,
Its just that I had no clue,
I knew you were the one,
We had so much fun,
I remember that day,
& whenever I say,
“I love you”
I would always hope that’ll you’ll say “I love you too,”
I noticed you never replied,
& every night I’ve always sighed,
Waiting for your one reply,
Just like waiting for that guy,
But, all I want to hear are those words,
& I want the same feeling as the nerds,
How they go crazy when a cute girl talks,
But, It made me crazy just having to walk,
That day to your place,
My heart was beating a million miles each pace,
& when I got there,
I saw you outside and all I did was stare,
Then I realized it was you,
Then all I wanted was you to be my boo,
I love you way more than you’ll ever know,
No matter what you look like from head to toe,
Because that’s what you said to me,
& when we were together it was like you were the key,
To my broken, shattered heart,
That was impossible for love from the start,
So don’t worry, your denial isn’t a problem,
It’s just I thought you were different from them,
It’ll probably be hard to be just “a really good friend”
When I just took that rushed bend,
From staying single,
To letting you mingle,
I should stop writing anymore,
Cos it’ll just make my heart more sore ><,
xx

i keep changing my mind, i can't keep my mind on one thing, coz i feel like , i'm alone when i choose a different descision , but, sometimes i really want that descision, though i cant keep it ==

i feel like, i have to do whatever everyone does, cos no one else makes descisions for themselves no more, so,

to be different i have to be alone,
to be the same, i have no descision like a stone.

i didnt go school today, cos my legs aching from gala day, and came back,
i really dont know if its a good thing that my dads back now,
before, i had so many different reasons why it was a good thing, now ?
i have so many reasons why its not ,
I KEEP CHANGING MY MIND ><
STOP IT ! .
==
i hate it ..

page 10, my neverednging s t o r y ♥

HELENBBY♥

" Everything has a reason,"

Baby its not just you
You know it hurts me too
Watching you leave with tears on your sleeve
Notice that mine arent exactly dry
Baby its not just you
Thats hurting,
Its me too...

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