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Monday, July 11, 2011
Sorry for ruining your birthday, everybody had a fucked up time cos of me, I'm sorry. I got someones phone stolen, got someones day ruined, got someone with regrets, got people uncomfortable, got someone going home. I'm sorry for it all. You guys already put the blame on me, but really I'm sorry. I feel like I ruin so many people's lives. Like I'm such a burden to people. I fucked up jayne's life, I fucked up your life, I fucked up my own life. It's like everyone around me slowly get's fucked up. It seems like some curse or someshit. Sorry for it all. If I knew this was all going to happen I swear I would have done anything to rewind time, but the time machine hasn't been invented yet ==. I'm fighting with him right now because he's saying sorry to me. But I don't get why he's sorry, I really don't get it at all. & Does he even mean it? Or is he just eager to get my forgiveness, or even if all he wants is my forgiveness, it's just a word. What if I don't mean that either? My head hurts. A lot. Why is he such an asshole? == Thursday, July 7, 2011 What does being best friends mean? Is it how long you guys have been friends, is it knowing you guys got each other's back automatically, is it when the other listens to each other no matter what. I have no fucking idea, can somebody elaborate on the meaning? I'm completely utterly clueless. It's ridiculous and pointless of the meaning of us being best friends. I mean, what is being best friends? I do so much in this relationship, but what does it actually mean. I mean, you don't even bother to talk to out, why the fuck should I. You act as if I wake up and it's all going to be okay, but no, it's not okay. Slowly if every time we have a fight and it takes time for me to forgive you, it's obviously not going to be the same. No it's not. Get it to your head. Have you maybe ever thought that I don't like fighting as well. Maybe you should fucking talk it out properly with me instead of giving up half way. What you're scared of me? What kind of best friend, is scared of the best friend. Like that doesn't even make sense. That's fucking ridiculous, you know what? Maybe you should stick with someone that doesn't care and isn't scary. Because if you can't handle me at my worst, what makes you think you deserve me at my best. I'm so sick and tired of being angry at you knowing our arguments last a minute because you back down letting it have my way. When you barely try. Like what the fuck are you? & you know what's worse. When it takes me to say something for you to do it. Can't you think for yourself for once? Can't you do something yourself? Why does it take someone else to give you an oppurtunity for you to take it. Why can't you make your own oppurtunities happen. Chase your own goals. & Guess what, I heard more about him :). This time, you fucking figure it out yourself. He's a fucking liar who is full of shit. Tell him, he doesn't need to treat you like a princess when he isn't a king. |
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