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Monday, April 11, 2011
I don't want to know your problems if you don't know my problems. You don't know me yet. And I know too much of you. You think I gave up on you because of him? I told you, I'm not making you choose, but him was my last straw. You were the reason why I gave up. I mean, you don't even know when I'm sad or happy anymore. Why the FUCK should I give a flying FUCK about YOU? When I'm absolutely normal you say what's wrong like I'm sad? Like uhhh wthell? Are you stupid? If you know me well enough and I was on msn and I was sad. I would not show it. AT ALL. No one knows, but you know? Since you act like you're my bestest friend and all. I feel like I was more of the know our friendship and you were more of the hang out friendship. I know we hung out and stuff, but did you even bother to get to know me? You don't know who I am, obviously. And I know I'm hard to understand. But don't act asif you know me. Maybe if you bothered to get to know me, you might realise. I can't even write this without pausing and almost crying. But you know what? It doesn't matter anyway. If I drop a tear who's there? Tissue. If I want to scream who's there? My voicebox. If I want to die who's there? My hands. I don't need you, I can be as independent as I want. But when you need me, I know I'm going to be there. I know this isn't going to last that long, but I have this urge to move schools away from you for our senior year because I'm THAT sick of you. That sick of hearing the same problems. "Oh I cry all the time lalallas." WHAT ABOUT ME? That what you say too, right? But the only reason that I don't even think for your perspective or how YOU feel in your shoes, is because, what about me? Have you realised? Everytime shit happens that I don't tell anybody, NOBODY, I tell you a couple of weeks later. When you don't even realise. I say it like it was a joke but it truly hurt. I back you up when you're not there all the fucking time. I'm so sick of it. I want to just back myself up next time. I want to stop being responsible for you. I don't want to see your face because I know the hurt in you, I can't resist to help you up. I've tried, but I can't try no more, and i've cried but I can't cry anymore, it's so impossible. But I really can't resist you. It's like leaving someone stranded after you hit them with a car. It's like your responsibility to make sure they're safe before you leave. I can't do it. It's impossible to go on without you. So that's why, I'm not going to see you for the rest of the holidays. I want to take this time, to get out of your life, for my sake. |
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